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Reach

I want to explain what you are about to read. The first part is something I felt like I needed to write back in February but never knew how to finish. So, I never published it. Little did I know, I was writing for my future self.

The second part is something I wrote today in September of 2018.

February 14, 2018

Woah. I am currently reading the book of Matthew in order for the first time.

Jesus is wild.

In the first 14 chapters, he is legit healing and saving people nonstop. We have all heard/read these stories individually, but when I saw them together, I realized something.

The people He helped were not those who were praying in the synagogues (or churches) utterly wrapped up in religious pretenses. No. The people He helped were those who came to Him, humbly cried, and reached out to Him with everything they had. They were the people who were lost, broken, and devastated by the world. They were broken by their sin (as we all are) but didn’t pretend to be otherwise. They had absolutely nothing and no one else to turn to but God. They didn’t cloak themselves in self-righteousness or prideful self-reliance. Most were not even Jewish. In fact, most were the outcasts, marginalized, and enemies of society. Most were publicly known for their sins.

Yet, these groups of people recognized who Jesus was and the hope that He is. Because of this, they did not waste their energy attempting to find their hope in the world. Instead, they used all of their effort to reach for Him – the One who created the world.

September 22, 2018

RAHHHHHHHHH. I have found that when I reach a really good place mentally, the devil uses all of his power to tear me down – to use every possible thing to make me insecure and discontent. (Who can relate? 🙋‍♀️) The devil uses everything in his power to make the void we all have (that only God can fill) feel like an insurmountable chasm cleaved through the center of our chests.

Haha I realize that that was a pretty dramatic sentence.

Nonetheless, it is how I feel right now,

and I know I cannot be alone in this either.

As I am writing this, I have come to the realization that I have been unknowingly attempting to fill this void with:

*drum roll please*

crap.

(mindless entertainment, Netflix, social media, wishing for a relationship, attempting to “figure out” *cough* control *cough* my future, comparison, etc.)

HA, and I wonder why I feel so bad.

{Note: wanting a relationship is not bad, peeps. God made Eve for Adam for a reason! However, if you take a step back and realize that the devil is using this to steal joy from you today, tell the devil to back the H E double hockey sticks up. :)}

I have slowly taken the contentment and hope I placed in God and given it to other people/things.

What does any of this have to do with anything?

I want you to know that you are not alone. Life is not a continuous state of sunshine, rainbows, unicorns, aesthetic instagram feeds, and Britt’s donuts. Sometimes, it consists of sickness, losing a loved one, Hurricane Florence ripping through your community, insecurity with everything, and heaven forbid: the Paleo diet for a diehard food lover (RIP).

Yet, regardless of what is going on, God is still there within reach.

All this change in circumstances means is that it may take much more effort to raise your arms and reach for Him.

Take heart, my friend.

Take heart, and reach.

XOXO,

Cat

Midterms.

Who out there feels overwhelmed by life right now? I know I do.

It is the week before spring break, and midterm season has arrived.

If you know me, you know that I have a tendency to procrastinate. However when I procrastinate, I don’t push the stress out of my mind and do something actually enjoyable like take a nap worry free. No, I stressfully watch Netflix or procrastinate in some other useless way holding on tight to my anxiety.

{Hahaha if you follow me on Instagram, you will find how I turned my procrastination into a very therapeutic way of dealing with stress this week. Thanks Christine! 😹}

The stress builds up to the point that it becomes paralyzing. I know I should be studying and doing the thousand other time sensitive things on my list…

…but I just can’t.

My stress level was reaching a really high point yesterday when God put things in perspective.

Take a deep breath, my friend.

If you are like me and stressing about midterms, stop and thank God. This is the best possible stress to have in the ENTIRE WORLD. If you are worried about midterms, this means you have both the OPPORTUNITY AND ABILITY TO LEARN. If you are worried about midterms, you are not worried about your HEALTH. If you are worried about midterms, you are not worried about being HUNGRY. If you are worried about midterms, you are not worried about your SAFETY or OVERALL WELL-BEING.

If you are not literally worried about an exam, what is the figurative “midterm” in your life right now? Pray for perspective.

If you are worried about some of the things I listed, you are being tested in a different way. I absolutely HATE that you are going through this. However, I assure you that God is with you every step of the way.

Do Not Worry

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? 26 Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27 Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?

28 “And why do you worry about clothes? See how the flowers of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29 Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30 If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you—you of little faith? 31 So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32 For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33 But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well.34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

-Matthew 6:25-34

Praise God for the midterms of life, for always being there, and for blessing us beyond what we deserve.

{Group prayer time!}

Please pray that God gives every single person who reads this peace and the knowledge that everything is going to be okay regardless of what is happening right now.

XOXO,

Cat

{Seriously, go check out my Instagram if you want to laugh 😹 @worldofcma}

Distracted.

Rahhhhhhhhhhhh! Why do we {I} allow ourselves {myself} to get so distracted by the WORLD? If we recognized and praised God for everything single thing He has blessed us with every single day, we would never get off of our knees. Yet, here we are, standing in our own strength and will, with eyes on everything but God and His goodness.

Our eyes are locked on everything that brings us fear, worry, and discontent…

…instead of the One who gives us assurance, peace, and contentment.

Why?

Yes, we are only human, but we cannot keep using this as an excuse to keep from trying to be better.

Having and showing gratitude has to be our top priority.

Being grateful will completely change our perspectives.

Therefore, being grateful will completely change our lives.

Refuse to complain about your day even if it is raining outside, you are drowning in a new semester of classes, and you spill an entire bowl of lucky charms in your lap in the dining hall. {True story :’)}

{Group prayer time!}

Pray that God gives every person who reads this the strength and wisdom to find His goodness in the midst of life’s daily chaos.

XOXO,

Cat

Obedience.

Many of you know my mom. That lady is the best. A few years ago, she spoke to me about having a word for the year. She told me to pray for God to reveal a word or something specific to keep in mind throughout the coming year.

So, I did just that.

Last year, my word was patience. Many of you know my story and how God blessed me tremendously through praying and fighting for patience {haha even now when I talk about it, happy tears still make an appearance}. The year before that, my word was perspective. Keeping my perspective on God in that particular span of 365 days ended up being incredibly important.

Eighteen days into 2017, my word has been made very clear:

Obedience.

I see it almost every single day.

{This is a great platform to spread God’s awesomeness, so let’s do something awesome. How does a quick group prayer sound?}

Please pray that God gives not only me, but every person who reads this the strength to be obedient to His call in 2017.

I pray you know that God is in control of this year, next year, and every single year after that. I pray God gives you the guidance, wisdom, and strength you need for everything you are going through right now and will go through this year.

If you pick a word for the year, let me know! I will be praying for you and the unbelievably AWESOME things God is going to do in your life in 2017. Have hope. God is the bomb, and His plans for you are the bomb.com.

All you have to do is give Him the reins.

‘”For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.”‘ Jeremiah 29:11

XOXO,

Cat

Relief.

Life is tough. I know every single person who reads this will agree. To be real with you, we go through straight up crap sometimes. Heartbreak, loneliness, disappointment, sorrow, fear, stress, worry, insecurity, hurt, rejection, anxiety, uncertainty, peer pressure, pain, depression, loss, and sickness sometimes seem to be playing on an endless loop. We are trying to weather this storm called life. We are trying to find relief. In fact, we are adamantly searching for relief.

The question is: where are you finding your relief?

Alcohol, drugs, “perfecting” your outward appearance {Perfecting is in “…” because God made YOU with intent, my friend. Do not forget that.}, work, school, money, people, and relationships are all TEMPORARY solutions. In fact, they are not even solutions at all. According to Merriam-Webster.com, a solution is “an answer to a problem.” None of the things listed are the answer to any of our problems. If they were the answer, why do they constantly fail us? They act as a mere band-aid to the much greater pain we are experiencing. Therefore, the relief they offer is not only temporary, but it is also not proportional to what we need.

So, what will give us relief?

It is not a what.

It’s a who.

“He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.” Psalm 147:3

What God offers is not a temporary solution or just a “band-aid” on your pain. He offers complete healing, restoration, comfort, and hope – the ultimate form of relief.

XOXO,

Cat

“Solution.” Merriam-Webster.com. Merriam-Webster, n.d. Web. 11 Jan. 2017.

Fighting the Disconnect

Christmas is so close, and I am PUMPED. I love this time of year because I get to spend time with those I love. It is straight up awesomesauce. But…

…that is not why we celebrate this day at all.

I am not sure if it comes from being a Christian for so long, or the fact that the Bible was written so long ago, but somewhere along the way the stories of the Bible became just that: stories. We (I) have become disconnected from and desensitized to the tough reality of the truth they bear.

Right now, I want you fight this disconnect.

Think about someone who means the world to you. It could be your brother, sister, mom, dad, or best friend. This person is someone who you care tremendously for and who cares tremendously for you. Really picture this person.

Now, think about some of the mistakes you have made this far in your life. There are too many to think about, right? Add this to the fact that you are going to make countless more in the future. How could we ever deserve heaven?

Think (I mean really think) about your beloved person willingly experiencing tremendous torment, torture, and ultimately a brutal death for you so that the stain of your sins would be wiped clean. They suffered because of the love they have for you. They chose this utterly selfless act so that you could have HOPE not only to get through this life here on earth, but also so you could have the hope of heaven!

The person you thought about, the one that means so much to you, is not perfect, yet just thinking about them taking the punishment you deserve is utterly heartbreaking. However, Christ is perfect and CHOSE to endure the unthinkable for US. He chose to bear the weight of each and every sin we have and will commit on His back, so we would be able to have the hope we could never deserve. He chose to take the punishment for the sins a girl would commit two thousand years later, so she could have hope.

December 25th marks the beginning of the fiercest act of love to ever occur.

Fight the disconnect, and thank God for His endless love.

XOXO,

Cat

The Slump.

Every single Christian experiences highs and lows. You know exactly what I’m talking about. One day you feel so close to God that you know you could face anything. Then the next day comes, and you feel like God is a million miles away. You completely lack the peace, security, and confidence you had only moments before. I am currently fighting the slump, the valley, the low point, and I know many of you are too. These low points are often times not brought on by a terrible event or circumstance. I have come to realize they are most often brought on by nothing at all. What I mean is that we allow God to slowly slip out of our focus. Everything is fine, so we lose the fire to fight to keep our focus on Him. God doesn’t move an inch. Our focus does as we become distracted by the mundane. This pushes us into the trap of focusing on ourselves. Then, all we see is what we lack.

This is what frustrates me the most about the slump: God has given us everything. Yet, we are not content. It is as if the devil notices our slip in concentration and holds up a magnifying glass in our line of sight to control what we focus on.

Being content is a conscious decision. It is one that has to be fought for each day. Being thankful and grateful for everything is everything. It is directly linked to finding our joy in Christ.

If you are currently facing the slump: keep fighting, stay thankful, and know that God has not moved an inch away from you. Turn your eyes to Him, and He will help you see.

XOXO,

Cat

 

Control.

Why do we (I) always fight God for control of our lives? We are not qualified to be in control, yet we can’t just give God the reins. I think it’s because we are afraid. We are trying to minimize the likelihood of experiencing failure, hurt, and pain. The way we accomplish this is by using control as a tool to measure the amount of strength we think we have against what we think we can handle. We measure the strength we feel we have today against what we feel we can handle tomorrow… and the next day and the next. Then, we plan our route accordingly. The problem is, first of all, we don’t know what the future holds. Secondly, the amount of strength we have today is not the amount we will be equipped with tomorrow. God gives us the strength to deal with TODAY, our “daily bread”, so we can handle TODAY not tomorrow. Yet, we use today’s allotment of strength to deal with tomorrow’s problems. Scratch that – the many possible problems we imagine could happen tomorrow.

God does not have to imagine anything because He knows. He planned our whole lives before we were even born. However, He didn’t give us a planned roadmap of our lives because He knew it would be too much. He knew we couldn’t handle it. We would be paralyzed with fear and would not get through today, much less tomorrow. Each chapter of our lives has brought varying degrees of failure, hurt, and pain – the things we work so hard to avoid. However, what we fail to realize is that God has not only been there every single time, but He also has gotten us through it every single time. So, why are we so afraid? You have survived everything in your life up to this point, this moment, reading this post on some random girl’s blog. God has brought you through so much. So, why would He abandon you now?

God has a plan (and trust me, it’s a good one). So, stop measuring your own strength when His strength is immeasurable. Do what you were made to do, grab His hand tight, and let go of control.

XOXO,

Cat